So phalu mohi bidhata dinha

Chaupai 2, Under Doha 59 · Bal Kand

Chaupai Text

सो फलु मोहि बिधाताँ दीन्हा। जो कछु उचित रहा सोइ कीन्हा॥ अब बिधि अस बूझिअ नहिं तोही। संकर बिमुख जिआवसि मोही॥ २ ॥

Transliteration (IAST)

so phalu mohi bidhātāṃ dīnhā। jo kachu uchita rahā soi kīnhā॥ aba bidhi asa būjhia nahiṃ tohī। saṃkara bimukha jiyāvasi mohī॥ 2 ॥

Meaning

The Creator gave me the fruit of that deed; whatever was proper, He did. But now, O Destiny, it is not right for You to keep me alive even though I am estranged from Shankar.

Context

This is Chaupai 2, Under Doha 59 from Bal Kand, in the episode “Shiva Renounces Sati”. The episode describes Shiva inwardly renouncing Sati and entering deep, unworldly samadhi.